Sunday, February 15, 2009

old friends, new friends

i have been thinking a lot lately about my friendship circle and i've come to the following GOOD and BAD conclusions.

GOOD:
- i finally have the best friend (other than david of course) i've always wanted and for the first time in my life I feel like the person I call my best friend is actually someone who cares for me as much as i care for them. that's a good thing to feel.

- all of my friends know how to make me laugh. that is something that is so important to me. i think laughing is one of the best thing you can do with friends.

- i have a small group of close friends. i will choose a small group of friends over a large group of acquaintances every single time.

BAD:
- i have some "former" friends that i wish weren't so former. i have not done a good job of staying in touch with some girls that were a huge part of my life and i feel bad about that. its not totally my fault since they didn't stay in contact with me but i miss them. the problem is that it's been so long i'd feel horrible/stupid to try to get reconnected. i'm not sure what to do.

- i feel like some of my friends take a lot and don't give much back. that's not to say that i'm in my friendships for what i can get but it starts to feel one-sided after awhile. i'm trying to decide if it's worth keeping these friendships since i made a promise to myself a long time ago that i would not let myself be used by a friend ever again. if you are one of my friends who NEVER initiates hanging out with me or cancels frequently or makes excuses, I may be talking about you.

- i REALLY wish David and I had some married friends. none of our friends are married yet and most of them are not even close. shoot, at this point I'd settle for some couple friends, you don't even have to be married.

not sure how to conclude this one. i'm a lucky girl to have the friends i do.

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